
Keep them coming
I guzzle diet sodas. It irritates wait staff that the glass is empty by time they enter the food order.
The older guys working at an all-night diner where I am a regular have two glasses ready when I sit down.
This guzzling is a remaining behavior from a long-ago habit.
The Challenger shuttle disaster is an annual reminder of a personal crisis decision point.
White-knuckling an urge
Spent weeks attempting to reign in the uncontrollable … could never predict how much I would drink once I started.
When off-duty I often needed 3-4 drinks in order to go to sleep. Would follow the nightcap with a 20 oz sports drink/acetaminophen bolus.
I was trying to go more than two consecutive days without drinking. January 28, 1986, would have been day three. The first three-day dry spell in years. It did not happen.
The last close call
I thought I separated drinking from the job. Until an off-duty response to a greater alarm fire while hammered resulted in a terrifying realization that I could lose my job.
That started the unsuccessful effort to reign in the drinking … and then to visit the Employee Assistance Program to ask for help the day after the Challenger disaster.
I entered an outpatient rehabilitation program 25 years ago tonight. I was angry and uncertain.
Just cause you are sober does not make you “all right”
Up to 90% of alcoholics have at least one relapse in the first four years after treatment. It could be from a behavioral, cognitive or biochemical factor.
I have maintained sobriety for a quarter-century. Doing Job 1 every day.
That was the easy part.
Still have behaviors and thinking that are addictive and destructive. They remain resistant to lasting change.
So much for the “Anonymous” in AA
Alcoholics Anonymous, is the 12-step spiritual self-help program that remains a force in treating a variety of addictive behaviors. Estimate about two million members.
I don’t think Bill Wilson or Dr. Bob Smith ever envisioned a society as tolerant and open about addiction as we are now. There was a lot of shame associated with alcoholics in 1935.
Rescue Me and alcohol
Alcoholism is a frequent topic in Denis Leary’s Rescue Me series.
Season 5 (2009) ended with this cliff-hanger:
Rescue Me’s creators, Denis Leary and Peter Tolan weren’t afraid to risk it. In the waning moments of the finale, Tommy Gavin (Leary) takes two bullets to the chest, courtesy of his grieving Uncle Teddy (Lenny Clarke), who seeks revenge for the recent alcohol-fueled death of his wife. Tolan says it was a natural progression of this season’s story arc, which saw Tommy fall off the wagon and drag the entire Gavin clan with him.
“We just really got into the whole idea of Tommy starting to drink again and being the merry piper leading everybody down that road. And what the consequences would be,” Tolan tells TVGuide.com. “We’ve already established over the seasons that Tommy’s curse — which is a direct reflection of 9/11 — is that he survives. When he should be dead, he survives, and there’s death all around him, which is what he is left to deal with.”
Leary says Teddy, who murdered the drunk driver who killed Tommy’s young son in an earlier season, was the obvious choice to shoot Tommy.
Leary says the show’s success at depicting alcoholism comes from a mixture of personal experience and letting the disease speak for itself. “Our investigation of [alcoholism] comes from a real place,” Leary says.
“I know firefighters who have drank, quit, started up again, quit, and finally said, “I can’t work unless I have alcohol. I need to have some fun.” So I think we’re portraying every part of it, and I don’t think we’re preachy about it. If Tommy keeps on drinking, I don’t think we will judge him. And if he quits drinking, I don’t know how we’ll judge the characters that continue to drink.”
Adam Bryant (Sept 1, 2009) “Exclusive: Rescue Me’s Creators Dish on the Shocking Season Finale” TV Guide.
My brothers and sisters were supportive and ball-busting. I did not have to hide my recovery – that was a powerful benefit.
Thanks!
Mike “FossilMedic” Ward
February 4, 2011
Firefighter Disability Pensions – Part One
4 commentsNot the Boys of Pointe du Hoc
As we negotiate these tough financial times perhaps its inevitable that tales of disability pension abuse surface which serve as fodder or fuel for critics of firefighter retirement systems. These examples are bandied about as proof that the current pension culture in many fire departments is abnormal and boarders on a scam. What if that is closer to the truth than we want to admit?
What’s a proper disability rate for fire fighters? Line firefighters are sometimes compared with military troops because of the nature of the objectives and the environment, though where “disability casualties” are concerned we are a bunch of sissies. During the entire Normandy D-Day Invasion, including the famous assault on Pointe Du Hoc, the casualty rate was about 5.7%. (D-Day was, of course, the largest amphibious landing in the history of warfare.) If D-Day is too sedate for your liking, how about the Battle of the Bulge where the Germans seemed to come out of nowhere, walloping the thinly arrayed Allies with a series of blows that rocked us back on our heels? Total casualty rate was 10.8%. If a couple of battles won’t suffice, let’s use the casualty rate of 16 million US men and women across the entire war: 6.6%. Firefighting is simply not more debilitating than what they went through.
It’s not uncommon for many fire departments, some of them quite large, to have disability retirement rates above 20%–some over 75%. These astounding numbers are proof positive that fire department operations are either manifestly reckless, fire officers are incompetent, or pension rules are way out of balance. Imagine any other profession, public or private, where three out of four employees are injured so badly that they are permanently incapacitated—managers would be fired as incompetent or the company would go out of business, but in many fire departments it is a commonplace fact that does not even garner notice.
Little notice is also given to the fact that many disability retirees go on to find some pretty surprising (and laudable) second careers and endeavors including mixed martial arts, marathoning, and in at least one case, becoming a fire fighter in another state.
“permanently disabled” Boston firefighter Albert Arroyo
has found a second-career competing in bodybuilder championships.
Within our profession it seems to be a rare case for anybody to stop and ask who is really harmed by these sky-high disability rates. The answer: the truly disabled and the men and women who make it to a normal retirement and receive a deflated pension because resources are sucked up by “disability” rates. Anyone who thinks that one doesn’t affect the other is seriously miss-informed, gullible, naïve or just plain ignorant. Normal retirees are the silent masses who deserve more but are edged out as their benefit becomes stagnant or worse.
Some systems are upping the number of work years required before normal retirement from 20 to 25 or more and are also creating a minimum age of 50 or increasing it to 55 or even 62. There is no question that normal retirement benefits are suffering because of sky-high disability rates.
If you work in a department with a 50% or higher disability rate and you take a normal service retirement benefit you are both honorable for not working the system and a chump, more often known as a sucker. Feels strange, doesn’t it?
Tomorrow: The Players
reference: US probes firefighter disability abuse – Boston Globe
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